God you make me feel like utter fucking shit. I feel guilt, so much fucking guilt. It’s shaking me bones and gnawing at my mind. As if all I want to do is think about how absolutely awful I feel, a dirty little circle, poking and prodding at how worthless and unneeded I am. How awful of a person I am. How barbaric it is for me to be upset. But no one understands how fucking infuriating it is to not be okay. To not be able to hold myself up, or to speak rationally to myself and see a brighter side. I physically, CANNOT. And no one understands. No one understands how unguided I feel, I can’t act correctly, can’t live correctly, and I just shove these burdens down and down and down. FUCK
